A year ago today I was suffering from pain so great for the first time in my life and I just know that without the miracle of prayer intercession and overwhelming support, I would not have been here this year writing this. I still remember the feeling of being so scared, calling up my father and making bilins na.
"The Lord says do not be afraid. We sometimes cant understand and recognize He is always there. He is reassuring and reminding us "I am here" have you forgotten "I love you-showing himself on the cross."
After prayers from my mom and sisses in the household and the intercessory, it was a miracle that I was able to get up, go to the doctor, get the MC, book my flight, survive the travel without a hitch and be scheduled for the surgery 2 days after. I was physically alone but I know God had sent me angels along the way for me to be able to go back home. When finally the doctor was asking about the blood donations, I have already surrendered everything to Him for He has already shown me that He is above all things and is in control of everything. At that time, all I can do was pray and ask my friends to pray as well.
The ordeal made me grateful of all things, from the simplest to the most complicated activities, that I can do. I was grateful when I was able to get up from the bed and walk. I was thankful when I was able to take the first step, then another one, 'til I was normally walking again. I was thankful to be able to take the first bite and not throw up afterwards. I was thankful to be able to finally clean my own surgery wound. I was thankful to be able to finally take a bath on my own.
I am thankful for being able to remember the names of people around me.
I am thankful that the biopsy was good news.
I am thankful for being able to travel to the Philippines, Hong Kong and Australia.
I am thankful for being able to climb the Sydney bridge and the stairs of the 360 HK Cable car.
Most of all, I am thankful for being alive today, able to provide for my family.
To my friends without faces in HysterSisters.com... who made me realize that not all people will understand what I was going through, maybe they will in the future, maybe they will never do, but it was a relief to hear your stories and advises and know that someone out there understands fully what I was going through.
So obviously, after a year, I'm still dealing with the emotional part, the shock of the loss and the whole ordeal. Experts say it's still a long road for me when it comes to that part. HealingHope said "Illness frightens a lot of people and younger people are especially awkward because they usually don't have a lot of experience with it. Reach out for the support you need, don't wait for people to "notice." I send you a ginormous hug." I myself is still at a loss but am very thankful for the steadfast faith, His now and then reassurance comes along if I just stop and listen carefully. So thank you my family and friends for being His instrument.
sabi nga ni lady gaga, luv luv luv!
