Congratulations Mr Felix Baumgartner

Photo Credit:USA Today
Congratulations to Mr. Felix Baumgartner for breaking the record today for the highest manned baloon flight, highest skydive but most of all for breaking the speed of sound!

"I know the whole world is watching right now and I wish the world could see what I can see. Sometimes you have to go up really high to understand how small you really are.” - Felix Baumgartner 

More news here: http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/northamerica/usa/9608084/Felix-Baumgartner-breaks-speed-of-sound.html

Ageless by Suzanne Somers -- must read, especially for all the women I know.

"So you can imagine my surprise when my gynecologist told me that I had a pre-precancerous condition (not cancer, not even precancer) growing in my uterus and that in order to prevent possible severe problems down the road, I would need to have my uterus removed." - Suzanne Somers.

She's now my hero, every page is a tearjerker.


Taking Charge of Your Own Health
"To remain oblivious to the hidden regenerative processes inside your body will cause you to die unnecessarily young."
— Ray Kurzweil and Terry Grossman, MD, Fantastic Voyage

Five years have passed, and as of this writing I have now been happily pronounced cancer-free. What a relief. No longer does each ache and pain trigger a fear in me of "Oh God, is 'it' coming back again?"

Cancer does that to you. It's an inner nagging, a constant reminder that there could be something bigger than yourself lurking out there in the shadows, sitting back, like a predator, deciding when and if it cares to strike again. Now, finally, I can release that fear. The predator has been locked up, in prison, hopefully never to be let out again.

Along the way in this war I have been fighting have come the blessings. I am truly loved by those who mean the most to me. They showed me this over and over during this time. Through it all, I learned about my own strength and courage. I didn't know I had it in me to buck the system by choosing unconventional therapies and doing it my way. But you see, I was never able to wrap my arms around the "standard of care" set forth by Western medicine as the way to treat cancer.

more here: http://www.oprah.com/article/oprahshow/20090128_tows_somersageless/3

Just Say Baaaa! By MaryBeth Whalen

I spent some time this morning just confessing before God that I am a sheep. And I don't mean that in an "I'm not fat, I'm fluffy" kind of way. I mean in a dirty, smelly, dumb animal kind of way. Let me explain.

As I was praying, I noticed myself once again asking God for some affirmation and encouragement on a specific issue. Now, I have asked for this before - many times, in fact. And God is faithful to answer each and every time. And so, there I was again, asking Him to supply something I know He knows we have already covered. Why can't I accept this covering once and for all? Why can't I rest on His promises and accept Him at His word, once and for all? As I listened to myself asking my Heavenly Father for the same thing all over again, I wondered, "Why doesn't He get tired of me already and tell me to go bother someone else?" And I realized, because I am a sheep. And He expects me to act like a sheep.

As I thought about this, I realized how many other dumb sheep things I do daily. I lose my way. I ask questions for which I already know the answers. My attitude stinks. I ram my head against the same brick wall, hoping for different results. I wander off from Him and then pout because I feel like He's not there for me. I am a sheep. Yet, He is the Shepherd. Ezekiel 34:11-12a says, "For this is what the Sovereign Lord says: I myself will search for my sheep and look after them. As a shepherd looks after his scattered flock when he is with them, so will I look after my sheep" (NIV). How I need the comfort, nurture and protection of the Shepherd.

After I spent time just confessing how sheep-like I am, I spent time praising Him for His infinite patience with us, His flock. I praised Him for knowing how dirty, smelly and dumb we are and loving us anyway. I praised Him that He knows how very little we have to offer and accepts it as our gift to Him. A shepherd doesn't expect his sheep to be wolves or eagles or anything other than sheep. Knowing that comforted me in the strangest sort of way. I love knowing that He leaves the 99 to get the one lost, hopeless sheep. (Matthew 18:12-13 NIV). He doesn't pick the sheep up and yell at it for acting like a sheep. Instead He patiently, lovingly carries it back to the flock and resumes His watch.

I love knowing that when I bring my little insecurities to Him, revealing my weaknesses and confusion, He doesn't say, "How can you be so stupid?" He says, "I expected nothing less from a sheep" and loves me anyway.

I hope that, like me, this will comfort you today. I hope that when you feel lost, hopeless, and smelly or just plain dumb for making the same mistakes or going to God with the same requests, you will just reflect on being a sheep. Spend time thanking Him for loving you anyway and being your Shepherd every day.

Dear Lord, thank You for being my Shepherd, and for loving me even when I act like a sheep. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Power Verses:
Psalm 23:1 "The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul." (NIV)
Psalm 28:9, "Save your people and bless your inheritance; be their shepherd and carry them forever." (NIV)
John 10:14-15, "I am the good shepherd. I know my sheep and my sheep know me???just as the Father knows me and I know the Father???and I lay down my life for the sheep." (NIV)
Isaiah 53:6: "We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the Lord has laid on Him the iniquity of us all." (NIV)

I wab candy!

Babawan na lang natin ang mga bagay-bagay para mas madaling maintindihan ... =)

"I'm quite sure when you look back at every thing that had happened to you this year, you will simply get amazed at how much effort, time, and emotion you had invested into something. And then you realize that the something is not as much important as the things you value now. Wala lang!"

isa pa...

"I don't know with you pero ako kasi, may sakit ako na pinoproblema masyado ang problema. To make things worst, minsan hindi ko naman problema, pinoproblema ko pa rin. Hahahahahaa! Tiring!"

See below for the full article :D

at para sa ndi cono, this one's from Eunice Olsen (SG Member of Parliament) -- "In tough times you can either wallow in misery or move on."

Eh Move on lang sabay sabi "Wala lang" ... at nakarelate daw talaga ko o ! :P

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year peeps! Malapit na Pilipinas, game ka na ba?! =)

Wala lang by Candy
Pangilinan
http://www.pep.ph/blogs/candidly/?p=15

Naiinis ako, kasi nagalit ako ngayon ng
bonggang-bongga! As in, ngayon-ngayon lang....Bakit?

Nag-inuman ang mga angels namin dito sa
bahay. Belated birthday celebration daw nung yaya ng anak ko. Uminom pero 'di
man lang nagpaalam sa akin, 'di man lang ako in-inform, nalasing pa! Grrrr! 'Di
man lang ako niyaya (joke!).

Honestly, I feel bad that I got mad. I
wasn't able to contain my emotions. I just snapped. Mali! Sayang, eh!
Yup...That's what I really feel at the moment. Sayang! I shouldn't have been
affected so much because it won't do anything to help the situation. To make
things worst, when I got mad, the yaya was sound asleep, drunk! So therefore, no
effect whatsoever ang acting ko. Dapat kasi, I should have taken it as...Wala
lang.

It's okay to get upset, but I shouldn't have
let it control me. Kasi feeling ko for that moment, naging Ms. Minchin ako.
Dapat, wala lang! Napagod na ako, napaos pa ako, nagsisi pa ako ngayon. Grrrr!
Tapos siya, sila...wala lang! Naisahan nila sko dun!
Wala lang...

Pasko na naman o kay tulin ng araw, aminin
mo, Paskong nagdaan tila ba kung kailan lang. Ngayon ay pasko...na naman! Na
naman!

Another year had passed. So many things
happened to me. So many things had changed-the way I see things and see people.
But then again, parang wala lang.
Each year has 525,600 minutes! Amazing!
Anong nangyari? Dami naman! And if I will tell you what transpired each minute,
gosh, that's going to be a looooong entry. And looking too much at those details
might again change me. Now, as I look back at all the carousel, tumblings,
drama, and action I had this year...wala lang!

I had traveled to several countries this
year. Pero parang wala lang.

The people I dislike the most last January
are now my friends. That's after realizing that they too have good traits. So
then, wala lang!

I remember having this ultra crush during
the first quarter of the year. As in. Para akong higad, ang Kati! Ngayon, 'di ko
na siya crush. Wala lang!

I did two television series, a movie, a
couple of shows this year. Wala lang!

I had a criminal case. I made a visit to
Hall of Justice several times. I filed bail last January 2. I even joked that I
am trying to flee from the cops, doing udercover, given the different hairstyles
I had then. Case closed. Now, wala lang!

My son got sick, got confined, and I got
sick as well. (Siguro dala na rin ng kaartehan ko.) Ngayon, wala lang!

I got so thin during the first quarter of
the year, now, I am gaining weight again. I'm back to running around UP academic
oval again, and after all that hard work, yes, I am gaining weight again.
Nevertheless, wala lang! Di ko naman pwede bw*sitin ang sarili ko everyday dahil
tumaba ako, kasi nasarapan ako sa pagkain.

Oh yes! I remember, there was a time that I
had no money this year, then I had money, then I had none again, then I worked
really hard and had money again. After that financial roller coaster, here I
am...wala lang!

Nagkaroon ng Gretchen-John controversy, but
gretchen and tonyboy are still going strong. Wala lang!

Claudine got pregnant, had a baby, and is
now back to her slim figure. Wala lang!

Piolo and Sam have an issue, Lolit enters
the picture. I'm sure na sa ending, wala lang!

If I get affected sa lahat ng nangyayari sa
paligid ko, by now, I'm quite sure na baliw na ako! And that goes for you as
well!

Kasi nga yung traffic lang sa edsa
'pag-nagpa-affect ka...you cannot reconcile the fact that when it rains here in
manila the streets get too crowded. And with everything that Bayani has been
doing, traffic pa rin. The best way to see traffic is...wala lang!

I'm quite sure when you look back at every
thing that had happened to you this year, you will simply get amazed at how much
effort, time, and emotion you had invested into something. And then you realize
that the something is not as much important as the things you value now. Wala
lang!

Simpler example, my problems last January
ain't my problems anymore. Wala lang!
Kasi nga naman kung problema ko pa yung
problema ko last January, my golly, ang laki ng problema ko! Twelve months in
the making and healing! Dapat by this time, wala lang na ang reaction ko.

I would love to have that attitude. Wala
lang! It's not that I am insensitive about people and situations. It's just that
I see things differently. It's sort of not allowing anything or anybody to
consume me. (Naks! Ang lalim nun...kung ano man ang sinabi ko.) But that's true!
Maganda yung ganun! Kasi hindi nakakapagod masyado.

I don't know with you pero ako kasi, may
sakit ako na pinoproblema masyado ang problema. To make things worst, minsan
hindi ko naman problema, pinoproblema ko pa rin. Hahahahahaa! Tiring!

I hope magkaroon ako ng billboard sa EDSA.
Tapos ang nakalagay, "Wala Lang."
And when people ask me, "ano yung picture
mo sa EDSA?" Ang sagot ko, "Di ba nga, wala lang!"

I declare that wala lang attitude can
actually save one person from the agony, pain, persecution, time, effort, and
energy, contrary to the pa-affect attitude. My motto that goes with this kind of
attitude is, "Pikon talo!"

You? What had happened to you these past 12
months? Marami 'di ba? Pero parang wala lang.

FW: Thank You

DEAR GOD:
I want to thank You for what you have already done.

* I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards; I am thanking you right now.
* I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better; I am thanking you right now.
* I am not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me; I am thanking you right now.
* I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears ; I am thanking you right now.
* I am not going to wait until my financial situation improves; I am going to thank you right now.
* I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet; I am going to thank you right now.
* I am not going to wait until I get promoted at work or until I get the job; I am going to thank you right now.
* I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief; I am thanking you right now.
* I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed; I am thanking you right now.
* I am thanking you because I am alive.
* I am thanking you because I made it through the day's difficulties.
* I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles.
* I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better.

I'm thanking you because, FATHER, YOU haven't given up on me.

God is just so good, and he's good all the time.

FW: Caller ID

On a Saturday night several weeks ago, this pastor was working late, and decided to call his wife before he left for home. It was about 10:00 PM, but his wife didn't answer the phone.
The pastor let the phone ring many times. He thought it was odd that she didn't answer, but decided to wrap up a few things and try again in a few minutes. When he tried again she answered right away. He asked her why she hadn't answered before, and she said that it hadn't rung at their house. They brushed it off as a fluke and went on their merry ways.
The following Monday, the pastor received a call at the church office, which was the phone that he'd used that Saturday night. The man that he spoke with wanted to know why he'd called on Saturday night.
The pastor couldn't figure out what the man was talking about. Then the man said, "It rang and rang, but I didn't answer." The pastor remembered the mishap and apologized for disturbing him, explaining that he'd intended to call his wife.
The man said, "That's, OK. Let me tell you my story.
You see, I was planning to commit suicide on Saturday night, but before I did, I prayed, 'God if you're there, and you don't want me to do this, give me a sign now.' At that point my phone started to ring. I looked at the caller ID, and it said, 'Almighty God'. I was afraid to answer!"
The reason why it showed on the man's caller ID that the call came from "Almighty God" is because the church that the pastor attends is called Almighty God Tabernacle!!

Fw: Trusting to Listen

I love this sermon. It summarizes what I want to achieve in my Faith right now. She puts everything point by point. But she really nailed it when she quoted Max Lucado,

Max Lucado says "To know God's will we must totally surrender to God's will. Our tendency is to make God's decision for him. Don't go to God with options and expect him to choose one of your preferences. Go to him with empty hands - no hidden agendas, no crossed fingers, nothing behind your back. Go to him with a willingness to do whatever he says. If you surrender your will, then he will 'equip you with everything good for doing his will.'

Visit christchurchsummit.org for more revealing sermons.

GB!

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Trusting to Listen
By Joy Mounts --> http://www.christchurchsummit.org/Sermons-2003/031109-TrustingToListen.html

November 9, 2003

Hebrews 11: 1

Let the words of my mouth and the mediations of each heart here be acceptable in your sight, oh, God.

Listening for God in our lives is something that we have hard time doing. God may be presenting us with answers to prayer and we dismiss it because we are expecting something else. We forget that God is unexpected, mysterious, eternal, and intimate. We forget that God may be standing right in front of us and we do not see God because we are looking up or down or sideways. We do not always trust ourselves or God enough to listen.

For example, a man heard that his neighborhood was flooding due to a heavy rain storm. He got down on his knees and prayed to God: "Dear God, save me from the coming flood!" The waters began to rise and a truck came by and the driver said, "Get in and I'll drive you to higher ground." The man said no, God would save him. The waters continued to rise. A woman in a boat rowed by. She called, "Jump into the boat and I will row you to safety." The man said no, God would save him. The floodwaters continued to rise. The man was perched on the roof of his house. A helicopter flew by and let down a rope for the man to grab onto. "I will fly you to safety," yelled the pilot. "No." the man said, "I am waiting for God to save me." The man drowned. He got to the heaven hopping mad. "What are you doing here?" God asked. The man said, "God! I am mad at you! I asked you to save me from the flood and you did not!" God smiled and said, "I sent you a truck, a boat and helicopter? How much more saving did you need?"

Trust is like that. We want to trust God. We want to agree with the Psalmist to "Trust God all the time."We want to say with Isaiah "I will trust God at all times and not be afraid."But we want God to appear and tell us to trust God. It is like parachuting, in theory it sound fine, but to get the parachute to do what it is designed for, we have to jump out of the plane first! Our lives are hard to figure out! So, we make bargains. "God if such and such happens then I will know it is really You talking or showing me the way and then I will trust You and do what it is you would have me do. But if I don't see this or hear that, then I will think it is only what I had for dinner last night and not listen." I will not trust what my heart is telling me. I will not trust what my soul is telling me. I will fail to trust God and lose the opportunities that God is showing me. What I really want God, in order to trust you is a memo of some kind. An e-mail would be nice or a few lines floating down from on high to help me out. But God does not send e-mails!

Frederick Buechner tells of a time when he was terribly depressed. He parked by the roadside to pray, a car appeared and passed him. The license plate said TRUST. He says, "What do you call a moment like that? Something to laugh off like the kind of joke life plays on us every once in a while? The Word of God? I am willing to believe it is something of both but for me it was an epiphany."The owner of the car turned out to work for a bank as a trust officer. After he read an account of the story he sent Buechner his own license plate. It sits on his shelf, and as he says "it is a little rusty around the edges but as holy a relic as I have seen."Trust alone is not always easy. We all want that sign. We all want our own license plate. After all to trust God is to throw caution to the wind. To leave ourselves open, to be vulnerable.

Trust can be defined as a confident expectation. Isn't the point that as believers we have a confident expectation that God is inter-tangled in our lives? That God is watching out for us, with us? We can look to a loving God who wants only the best for us, even when we sometimes do not understand what the best is? Even if it is painful? Trusting God is not always taking the road we think we should. Sometimes, trusting God means doing what is unknown and all the risks that entails. Abraham and Sarah stared in astonishment when told they would be the parents of a great nation. They knew they were too old. Sarah laughed at this cosmic joke! But the promise was fulfilled despite their uncertainties because they put their trust in the Messenger. Moses was told to go back to Egypt and lead the people of Israel out of slavery. He was to demand Pharaoh release them! Demand to a Pharaoh? He sputtered and muttered and challenged the burning bush to give him the plan, in full. God simply said "I am who I am! Now go!" Moses listened with doubts of all kinds and finally trusted God would be present with him as promised. Trusting does not mean you do not have doubts. Indeed it may be that doubts are what propel us to trust. The disciples gave up their ordinary lives to follow one who they knew was the Messiah. They were not turned overnight into angels but remained men and women who questioned, bargained and wanted to know - "where are we going? What's in this for me? Can't you let us in on the plan Jesus?" Jesus said: "Follow me and I will make you fish for people."In other words trust me, let's go, we have work to do! They went.

Even Jesus seeing that the stakes had been raised to the point of certain death hesitated. His eleventh hour prayer in the Garden of Gethsemane is a man trying to grapple with all that is before him. How many times have we prayed similar prayers! Yet Jesus also trusted God that would see him through, his reply to his own question. "Not what I want but what you want."After an internal struggle, Jesus trusted God, who, he knew, would not abandon him. A God whose plan to be completed required a great deal of trust on Jesus side. Jesus could have said "you know God; I am not too sure about this, look where it has gotten me. I mean, I am doing the work you asked me to do, but the stakes have suddenly gotten higher than I bargained for. I know you said you would stick with me, no matter what, but I think all this is leading to my death, in fact, I am sure of it. Death! So if it is all the same to you, I think the boys and I will head back to Nazareth where I have a nice little carpentry business and we'll call it a day?" Of course, Jesus did not say that. Jesus, with the sweat and blood on his brow, listened, trusted that despite the way it looked, this was his part in the plan. Jesus surrendered his will to God's. He gave his life to fulfill God's love for us.

In order to truly trust God, we must be open to what God lays in front of us. We must accept that we do not have all the answers. We must accept that maybe God knows a thing or two more than us. This is hard. After all our culture tells us that we have all the tools we need to make all the decisions we can ever need. Can't I yahoo or google God and come up with the same answers? Unfortunately not.

Max Lucado says "To know God's will we must totally surrender to God's will. Our tendency is to make God's decision for him. Don't go to God with options and expect him to choose one of your preferences. Go to him with empty hands - no hidden agendas, no crossed fingers, nothing behind your back. Go to him with a willingness to do whatever he says. If you surrender your will, then he will 'equip you with everything good for doing his will.'"This is not what our intuitions tell us to do. Surrender does not come easily. I have lived this and so have you. We all have our Gethsemane moments.

For years I had felt God calling me to another life. But I was busy with a career I loved. Then through the workings of the corporate world, I found myself in a position to fulfill this dream. I came to Drew. Yet I was tentative, shying away from the reason my heart was telling me I was there. I was a teacher not a minister! But....in the back of my mind, a voice I was shaking away kept calling me. "Why aren't you fully listening?" I replied "I am here aren't I?" "Yes," the voice replied "you are but are you there for the reason I want you to be?" "Leave me alone," I said, "I have papers to write and tests to study for - do you have any idea how long it has been since I took a test?" "I think I might have a general idea," the voice replied. "What are you afraid of my child?" "Me afraid?" I said quaking. "I am starting a whole new chapter of my life. Of course I am scared. But I am not scared of being a minister; it's just that I think I am supposed to be a professor!" "Trust me," the voice said; "the plans you have made are not what I want you to be." And so it went for a whole year. I refused to lean into the trust of God and throw caution to the wind and accept that I really should be a minister. My friends and family and advisors, patiently listening to me arguing with God and let me argue.

Until finally, I broke. I felt the storm welling up inside of me and I knew that the voice had been right all along. I had not wanted to trust God and come to Drew as a minister. Frankly it scared me. Where would God lead me? Where would I go? I like to know these things. I like to kid myself into thinking I am in charge. However, in order to fulfill what God has for me - I have to trust God. So one day at 3:00 o'clock in the morning, I called out: "God, you win!" And God said, "No you do." I changed my degree program this summer and with Augustine I can say "My heart was restless until it was at rest in thee."

Isn't that one of the biggest elements of trust - listening to God? Trust is listening. Listening for God in your life. Listening as God speaks however softly or loudly that may be. And not just hearing that God is speaking but really listening. It may be surprising whose mouth the words of God come from and in what experience. Frederick Buechner wrote "The question is not whether the things that happen to you are chance things or God things because of course they are both at once. There is no chance thing, which God cannot speak through. He speaks, I believe, and the words he speaks are incarnate in the flesh and blood of our selves and our own footsore and sacred journeys. We cannot live our lives constantly looking back; listening back, lest we be turned into pillars of longing and regret but to live without listening at all is to live deaf to the fullness of the music. "

In order to be open we have to get out of own way to hear what God is saying in the small crossroads in our lives as well as the big junctures. This is not easy. We need to step outside of ourselves to be open to the possibilities. We need to step outside of the obstacles we set before ourselves and trust. Listening is part of the creative process of living. Madeleine L'Engle wrote "When the work takes over, then the artist is enabled to get out of the way, not to interfere. When the work takes over, then the artist listens. Before he can listen, paradoxically he must work. Getting out of the way and listening is not something that comes easily, either in art or in prayer."We want to be the ones making all the decisions. We forget somehow that trusting God is all about letting go.

"Let Go and Let God."How easy to say that to others, how hard to hear it ourselves. In trusting God we need to learn to trust ourselves to trust God. To really let go is to open the door for God to be there with us, around us. We are stubborn. And this stubbornness becomes a wall of not trusting. The wall become thick as our refusal to trust solidifies. Not trusting can turn into fear. And fear makes us smaller. Fear robs us of the joy of living life to its fullest. Trust restores. Trust lifts us up. "I will trust and will not be afraid for the Lord God is my strength and my song"Isaiah shouted. "I can do all things through God who gives me strength"Philippians 4 verse 13 is what got me through cancer six years ago. But I can only do all things through God if I trust that God will get me through all things. If I rely only on my own strength I will falter and be weary. As Julian of Norwich proclaimed Jesus "wants us to trust that he is constantly with us, in heaven.., in earth..., .....And in our soul."If I do not then I will never make it off the shore into the waters of life. How often have I said okay God, watch me I am diving in where you leading me only to realize that my while my hands are in the water, my feet are firmly planted back on the shore of my will. How much of life will pass me by if I do so? How much of life am I willing to let pass me by?

There is a sign that my sister Julie gave me that used to hang in my office and now hangs in my apartment. She gave it to me after a particularly hard time in my life. It says "Joy, Trust Me. I have everything under control. Jesus." I put it where I pass it every day. It is my reminder to be open and listen and not get in my own way. To listen for that still small voice and trust God's will for my life. I am still learning not to fight but to trust. I think that in this I am part of a large crowd! We all have trouble really trusting. Really letting go and jumping into the ever-lasting arms! We are all still learning to lean into God's love and trust what God has planned. But we are also learning how much God loves each one of us. It is this love that let's us shout with Isaiah that God has given us strength and we will sing God's praises for the wondrous things God has done! It is this love that God has for us that helps us to slowly learn to lean into God's trust, love, and hope for us all. Learning to totally trust God and be vulnerable may be a lifetime of learning for each and every one of us. But it is as we strive to do so that we may be able to say with conviction - let go and let God. Amen.

FW: Peace With Ourselves by Mary Wilder Tileston - Joy and Strength Reflection

Joy and Strength Reflection yesterday from devotions.org

DO, I entreat you,

drive away all these anxious thoughts which hinder your soul,

and try to serve God cheerfully.

Be resolute in overcoming self,

and in hearing with your mental troubles whatever they be, leaving all to God,

and doing whatever you know to be His will,

quickly and heartily;

be gentle, patient, humble, and courteous to all,

but especially be gentle and patient with yourself.

Bakit magulo ang utak??? kassiii....

".... I think that many of your troubles arise from an exaggerated anxiety, a secret impatience with your own faults;
and this restlessness, when once it has got possession of your mind, is the cause of numberless trifling faults,
which worry you, and go on adding to your burden until it becomes unbearable...."

Pero, wag syadong parusahan ang sarili....

"... I would have you honest in checking and correcting yourself,
but at the same time patient under the consciousness of your frailty...."

Remember that Jesus our Lord loves to dwell within a quiet heart,
and to come to those who are at peace with themselves;
restlessness and anxiety hinder our seeing Him,
even when He is beside us and speaking to us.

PURE HYACINTHE BESSON

"Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost. " -- ROMANS 15:13

Fw: Psalm 142:1-7 - David's Prayer

A maskil of David, when he was in the cave. A
prayer.
With full voice I cry to the LORD; with full
voice I beseech the LORD. Before God I pour out my complaint, lay bare my
distress. My spirit is faint within me, but you know my path. Along the
way I walk they have hidden a trap for me. I look to my right hand, but no
friend is there. There is no escape for me; no one cares for me. I cry out
to you, LORD, I say, You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the
living. Listen to my cry for help, for I am brought very low. Rescue me
from my pursuers, for they are too strong for me.

Psalm 142:1-7
I do not like caves. When I visited Mammoth Cave in Kentucky, I could hardly wait to get out. Thus, I somewhat understand David's distress as he wrote this psalm while hiding from Saul in a cave. In his distress, he looked in four directions.
First, David looked within. "I cry out to the Lord with my voice; with my voice to the Lord I make my supplication. I pour out my complaint before Him; I declare before Him my trouble. When my spirit was overwhelmed within me, then you knew my path" (vv. 1-3). He looked within and said, "Look, I'm in trouble; I'm complaining; I'm overwhelmed." Introspection sometimes can be good for you, but don't spend too much time looking within, or you will get discouraged.
Then David looked around, hoping to find help. "Look on my right hand and see, for there is no one who acknowledges me; refuge has failed me; no one cares for my soul" (v. 4). Do you ever feel like that? Do you look around and say, "Nobody even cares--everyone is bearing his own burdens, and nobody wants to share mine"? Perhaps in those situations you should take time to bear other people's burdens--then they might be interested in your concerns.
After looking within and around and finding only discouragement, David looked up. "I cried out to You, O Lord: I said, 'You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living"' (v. 5). In other words, "God, you're going to hear my cry. You're going to deliver me from my persecutors; they are stronger than I am."
Finally, David looked ahead. "Bring my soul out of prison, that I may praise Your name; the righteous shall surround me, for You shall deal bountifully with me" (v. 7). After you have seen the glory and the blessing of the Lord, you can look ahead with confidence.
* * *
Perhaps you are in a cave of discouragement today. Your hope lies not within yourself or with your circumstances. Look to the Lord and obey His Word. Then look ahead with confidence, for God's promises are sure and His Word is true.

Fw: Psalm 23 ( King James Version )

The LORD Is My Shepherd

1 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
This is an eye openerYou probably never thought nor looked at this Psalm in this way even though many among us may have said it over and over again

The Lord is my shepherd -- That's relationship
I shall not want -- That's supply
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures -- That's rest
He leadeth me beside the still waters -- That's refreshment
He restoreth my soul -- That's healing
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness -- That's guidance
For His name sake -- That's purpose
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death -- That's testing
I will fear no evil -- That's protection
For thou art with me -- That's faithfulness
Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me -- That's discipline
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of my enemies -- That's hope
Thou anointest my head with oil -- That's consecration
My cup runneth over -- That's abundance
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life -- That's blessing
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord -- That's security
Forever --That's eternity

Fw: Dancing with God

When I meditated on the word Guidance,

I kept seeing "dance" at the end of the word.

I remember reading that doing God's will is a lot like dancing.

When two people try to lead, nothing feels right.

The movement doesn't flow with the music,

and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky.

When one person realizes that, and lets the other lead,

both bodies begin to flow with the music.




One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back

or by pressing Lightly in one direction or another.

It's as if two become one body, moving beautifully.

The dance takes surrender, willingness,

and attentiveness from one person

and gentle guidance and skill from the other.




My eyes drew back to the word Guidance.

When I saw "G: I thought of God, followed by "u" and "i".

"God, "u" and "i" dance." ! ;

God, you, and I dance.

As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust

that I would get guidance about my life.

Once again, I became willing to let God lead.




My prayer for you today is that God's blessings

and mercies be upon you on this day and everyday.

May you abide in God as God abides in you.

Dance together with God, trusting God to lead

and to guide you through each season of your life

This prayer is powerful and there is nothing attached.




If God has done anything for you in your life,

please share this message with someone else,

for prayer is one of the best gifts we can receive.

There is no cost but a lots of rewards;

so let's continue to pray for one another.




And I Hope You Dance

Fw: The Very Purpose of Life

You will enjoy the new insights that Rick Warren has with his wife now having cancer and him having "wealth" from the book sales.


This is an absolutely incredible short interview with Rick Warren, "Purpose Driven Life" author, and pastor of Saddleback Church in California.


In the interview by Paul Bradshaw with Rick Warren, Rick said:

People ask me, What is the purpose of life? And I respond: In a nutshell, life is preparation for eternity. We were made to last forever, and God wants us to be with Him in Heaven.


One day my heart is going to stop, and that will be the end of my body--but not the end of me.

I may live 60 to 100 years on earth, but I am going to spend trillions years in eternity. This is the warm-up
act - the dress rehearsal of God wants us to practice on earth what we will do forever in eternity.


We were made by God and for God, and until yo u figure that out, life isn't going to make sense.


Life is a series of problems: Either you are in one now, you're just coming out of one, or you're getting ready to
go into another one. (my emphasis, not Rick Warren's)


The reason for this is that God is more interested in your character than your comfort.

God is more interested in making your life holy than He is in making your life happy.


We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that's not the goal of life. The goal is to grow in character, in
Christ likeness.


This past year has been the greatest year of my life but also the toughest, with my wife, Kay, getting cancer.


I used to think that life was hills and valleys - you go through a dark time, then you go to the mountaintop, back and forth. I don't believe that anymore.


Rather than life being hills and valleys, I believe that it's kind of like two rails on a railroad track, and at all times you have something good and something bad in your life.


No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on.


And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always something good for which you can thank God.


You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your problems.


If you focus on your problems, you're going into self-centeredness, "which is my problem, my issues, my pain."


But one of the easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get your focus off yourself and onto God and others.


We discovered quickly that in spite of the prayers of hundreds of thousands of people, God was not going
to heal Kay or make it easy for her.


It has been very difficult for her, and yet God has strengthened her character, given her a ministry of
helping other people, given her a testimony, drawn her closer to Him and to people.


You have to learn to deal with both the good and the bad of life. Actually, sometimes learning to deal with the good
is harder. For instance, this past year, all of a sudden, when the book sold 15 million copies, it made me instantly
very wealthy.


It also brought a lot of notoriety that I had never had to deal with before. I don't think God gives you money or
notoriety for your own ego or for you to live a life of ease.


So I began to ask God what He wanted me to do with this money, notoriety and influence. He gave me two
different passages that helped me decide what to do, II Corinthians 9 and Psalm 72.


First, in spite of all the money coming in, we would not change our lifestyle one bit. We made no major purchases.

Second, about midway through last year, I stopped taking a salary from the church.


Third, we set up foundations to fund an initiative we call The Peace Plan to plant churches, equip leaders, assist
the poor, care for the sick, and educate the next generation.


Fourth, I added up all that the church had paid me in the 24 years since I started the church, and I gave it all back.
It was liberating to be able to serve God for free.


We need to ask ourselves: Am I going to live for possessions? Popularity?


Am I going to be driven by pressures? Guilt? Bitterness? Materialism?


Or am I going to be driven by God's purposes for my life)?


When I get up in the morning, I sit on the side of my bed and say, God, if I don't get anything else done
today, I want to know You more and love You better.

God didn't put me on earth just to fulfill a to-do list. He's more interested in what I am than what I do.
That's why we're called human beings, not human doings.


Happy moments, PRAISE GOD.
Difficult moments, SEEK GOD.
Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD.
Painful moments, TRUST GOD.
Every moment, THANK GOD.

FW: People Come Into Your Life For a Reason

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.

Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season!

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Fw: Ten Guidelines From God

Effective immediately, please be aware that there are
changes YOU need to make in YOUR life. These changes
need to be completed in order that I may fulfill My promises
to you to grant you peace, joy and happiness in
this life. I apologize for any inconvenience,
but after all that I am doing, this seems very little to ask of you.
Please, follow these 10 guidelines

1. QUIT WORRYING
Life has dealt you a blow and all you do is sit and worry. Have you
forgotten that I am here to take all your burdens and carry them for you? Or
do you just enjoy fretting over every little thing that comes your way?

2. PUT IT ON THE LIST
Something needs done or taken care of. Put it on the list. No, not YOUR
list. Put it on MY to-do-list. Let ME be the one to take care of the
problem. I can't help you until you turn it over to Me. And although My
to-do-list is long, I am after all... God. I can take care of anything you
put into My hands. In fact, if the truth were ever really known, I take care
of a lot of things for you that you never even realize.

3. TRUST ME
Once you've given your burdens to Me, quit trying to take them back. Trust
in Me. Have the faith that I will take care of all your needs, your problems
and your trials. Problems with the kids? Put them on My list. Problem with
finances? Put it on My list. Problems with your emotional roller coaster?
For My sake, put it on My list. I want to help you. All you have to do is
ask.

4. LEAVE IT ALONE
Don't wake up one morning and say, "Well, I'm feeling much stronger now,
I think I can handle it from here." Why do you think you are feeling
stronger now? It's simple. You gave Me your burdens and I'm taking care of
them. I also renew your strength and cover you in my peace. Don't you know
that if I give you these problems back, you will be right back where you
started? Leave them with Me and forget about them. Just let Me do my job.

5. TALK TO ME
I want you to forget a lot of things. Forget what was making you crazy.
Forget the worry and the fretting because you know I'm in control. But
there's one thing I pray you never forget. Please, don't forget to talk to
Me - OFTEN! I love YOU! I want to hear your voice. I want you to include
Me in on the things going on in your life. I want to hear you talk about
your friends and family. Prayer is simply you having a conversation with Me.
I w ant to be your dearest friend.

6. HAVE FAITH
I see a lot of things from up here that you can't see from where you are.
Have faith in Me that I know what I'm doing. Trust Me; you wouldn't want the
view from My eyes. I will continue to care for you, watch over you, and meet
your needs. You only have to trust Me. Although I have a much bigger task
than you, it seems as if you have so much trouble just doing your simple
part. How hard can trust be?

7. SHARE
You were taught to share when you were only two years old. When did you
forget? That rule still applies. Share with those who are less fortunate
than you. Share your joy with those who need encouragement. Share your
laughter with those who haven't heard any in such a long time. Share your
tears with those who have forgotten how to cry. Share your faith with those
who have none.

8. BE PATIENT
I managed to fix it so in just one lifetime you could have so many diverse
experiences. You grow from a child to an adult, have children, change jobs
many times, learn many trades, travel to so many places, meet thousands of
people, and experience so much. How can you be so impatient then when it
takes Me a little longer than you expect to handle something on My
to-do-list? Trust in My timing, for My timing is perfect. Just because I
created the entire universe in only six days, everyone thinks I should
always rush, rush, rush.

9. BE KIND
Be kind to others, for I love them just as much as I love you. They may
not dress like you, or talk like you, or live the same way you do, but I
still love you all. Please try to get along, for My sake. I created each of
you different in some way. It would be too boring if you were all identical.
Please, know I love each of your differences.

10. LOVE YOURSELF
As much as I love you, how can you not love yourself? You were created by
me for one reason only -- to be loved, and to love in return. I am a God of
Love. Love Me. Love your neighbors. But also love yourself. It makes My
heart ache when I see you so angry with yourself when things go wrong. You
are very precious to me. Don't ever forget...Touch someone with your love.
Rather than focus upon the thorns of life, smell the roses and count your
blessings!

All the wealth in the world could not buy you a friend, nor could it pay
for the loss of one.

Fw: The Cab Ride

Twenty years ago, I drove a cab for a living. When I arrived at 2:30 a.m., the building was dark except for a single light in a ground floor window. Under these circumstances, many drivers would just honk once or twice, wait a minute, and then drive away.

But I had seen too many impoverished people who depended on taxis as their only means of transportation. Unless a situation smelled of danger, I always went to the door. This passenger might be someone who needs my assistance, I reasoned to myself.

So I walked to the door and knocked. "Just a minute", answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor.

After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 80's stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940s movie.

By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets.

There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware.
"Would you carry my bag out to the car?" she said. I took the suitcase to the cab, then returned to assist the woman.
She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb.
She kept thanking me for my kindness. "It's nothing", I told her. "I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother treated".
"Oh, you're such a good boy", she said. When we got in the cab, she gave me an address, and then asked, "Could you drive through downtown?"
"It's not the shortest way," I answered quickly.
"Oh, I don't mind," she said. "I'm in no hurry. I'm on my way to a hospice".
I looked in the rear-view mirror. Her eyes were glistening. "I don't have any family left," she continued. "The doctor says I don't have very long." I quietly reached over and shut off the meter.
"What route would you like me to take?" I asked.
For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator.
We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds. She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl.
Sometimes she'd ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing.
As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, "I'm tired. Let's go now"
We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico.
Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move. They must have been expecting her.
I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.
"How much do I owe you?" she asked, reaching into her purse.
"Nothing," I said
"You have to make a living," she answered. "There are other passengers," I responded. Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug. She held onto me tightly.
"You gave an old woman a little moment of joy," she said.
"Thank you."
I squeezed her hand, and then walked into the dim morning light. Behind me, a door shut. It was the sound of the closing of a life
I didn't pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly lost in thought. For the rest of that day, I could hardly talk. What if that woman had gotten an angry driver, or one who was impatient to end his shift?
What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?
On a quick review, I don't think that I have done anything more important in my life.
We're conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments.
But great moments often catch us unaware-beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.
PEOPLE MAY NOT REMEMBER EXACTLY WHAT 'YOU DID, OR WHAT YOU SAID, ~BUT~THEY WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER HOW YOU MADE THEM FEEL.
You won't get any big surprise in 10 days if you send this to ten people.
But, you might help make the world a little kinder and more compassionate by sending it on.
Thank you, my friend...
Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.

Thank You by Oprah

Forwarded by a friend... really love Oprah...

Be joyful always; pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances, forthis is God's will for you in Christ Jesus" (1Thes 5:16-18)
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THANK YOU By Oprah Winfrey
I live in the space of thankfulness - and I have been rewarded a million times over for it. I started out giving thanks for small things,and the more thankful I became, the more my bounty increased.

That's because what you focus on expands, and when you focus on thegoodness in your life, you create more of it. Opportunities, relationships,even money flowed my way when I learned to be grateful no matter what happened in my life.

"Say thank you!" Those words from my friend and mentor Maya Angelou turned my life around. One day about ten years ago, I was sitting in my bathroom with the door closed and the toilet lid down, booing and ahooing on the phone so uncontrollably that I was incoherent. "Stop it! Stop it right now and say thank you!" Maya chided. "But - you don't understand," I sobbed. To this day, I can't remember what it was that had me so far gone,which only proves the point Maya was trying to make. "I do understand," shetold me. "I want to hear you say it now. Out loud. 'Thank you.'

"Tentatively, I repeated it:
"Thank you - but what am I saying thank you for?"

"You're saying thank you," Maya said, "because your faith is so strong that you don't doubt that whatever the problem, you'll get through it.You're saying thank you because you know that even in the eye of the storm,God has put a rainbow in the clouds. You're saying thank you because you know there's no problem created that can compare to the Creator of all things. Say thank you!"

So I did - and still do. Only now I do it every day.

I kept a gratitude journal, as Sarah Ban Breathnach suggests in SimpleAbundance, listing at least five things that I'm grateful for. My list includes small pleasures: the feel of Kentucky bluegrass under my feet(like damp silk); a walk in the woods with all nine of my dogs and mycocker spaniel Sophie trying to keep up; cooking fried green tomatoes with Stedman and eating them while they're hot; reading a good book and knowing another awaits.

My thank-you list also includes things too important to take for granted: an "okay" mammogram, friends who love me, 15 years at the same job(and loving it more than the first day I started), a chance to share myvision for a better life, staying centered, having financial security. Iwon't kid you, having money for all the things I want is a blessing. But asI look back over my journals, which I've kept since I was 15 years old, 99 per cent of what brought me real joy had nothing to do with money . (It had a lot to do with food,however.)

It's not easy being grateful all the time. But it's when you feel least thankful that you are most in need of what gratitude can give you:PERSPECTIVE. Just knowing you have that daily list to complete allows you to look at your day differently, with an awareness of every sweet gesture and kind thought passed your way. When you learn to say thank you, you see the world anew. And as Meister Eckhart so eloquently stated:

"If the only prayer you ever say in your whole life is a Thank you, that would suffice."

Here's a link to the Thank You episode: http://www.oprah.com/tows/pastshows/tows_past_20011119.jhtml

The Invitation by Oriah

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.

I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's
longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are.

I want to know if you will
risk looking like a foolfor lovefor your dreamfor the adventure of being
alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon...I want to
know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by
life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further
pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain

mine or your own

without moving
to hide it

or fade it

or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy

mine or
your own

if you can dance with wildness

and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips
of your fingers and toes

without cautioning us to

be careful

be realistic

remember
the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are
telling me is true.I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to
yourself.If you can bear the accusation of betrayal

and not betray your own
soul.If you can be faithless

and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you
can see Beauty

even when it is not pretty

every day.And if you can source your own
life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure

yours and
mine

and still stand at the edge of the lake

and shout to the silver of the full
moon,"Yes."
It doesn't interest me

to know where you live or how much money
you have.I want to know if you can get up

after the night of grief and
despair

weary and bruised to the bone

and do what needs to be done

to feed the
children.
It doesn't interest me who you know

or how you came to be here.I
want to know if you will standin the centre of the fire

with me

and not shrink
back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom

you have studied.I
want to know what sustains you

from the inside

when all else falls away.
I want
to know if you can be alone with yourself

and if you truly like the company you
keepin the empty moments.

Fw: Good or Bad Hard To Say

heard a good story from a friend today...

Once upon a time, there was a king.
The king liked one of his
followers very much because he was very wise and
always gave
very useful advice. Therefore the king took him along wherever
he went.

One day, the king was bitten by a dog, the finger was
injured and the
wound was getting worse. He asked the follower if that
was a bad sign.
The follower said, 'Good or bad, hard to say'. In the end,
finger of the king
was too bad that had to be cut. The king asked the
follower again if
that was a bad sign. Again, the follower gave the
same answer,
'Good or bad, hard to say'. The king became very angry and
sent the follower to prison.

One day, the king went hunting in
the jungle. He got excited when he was
on the chase of a deer. Deeper and
deeper he went inside the jungle. In the
end he found himself lost in the
jungle. To make things worse, he got
captured by the native people who
lived inside the jungle. They wanted to
sacrifice him to their god. But when
they noticed that the king had one
finger short, they released him
immediately as he was not a perfect man
anymore and not suitable for
sacriface. The king managed to get back to
his palace after all.

And he finally understood the follower's wise quote, 'Good or bad,
hard to say'. If he hadn't lost one finger, he could have been killed by
the native people. He ordered to release the follower, and apologized
to him.
But to the king's amazement, the follower was not mad at him at all.
Instead,the
follower said, 'It wasn't a bad thing that you locked me up.'
Why? Because if the king hadn't locked the follower up, he would
have
brought the follower along to the jungle. If the native found that
the king
was not suitable, they would have used the follower.
Again, the quote 'Good
or bad, hard to say' stands.

The moral of the story is that
everything that happens in this world,
there is no absolute good or bad.
Sometimes good things turned out to be bad
things eventually, while bad
things become a gain.
Whatever good things that happen to you, enjoy it, but
don't
have to hold too tight to it, treat it as a surprise in your
life.
Whatever bad things that happen to you, don't have to feel too
sad or
despair, in the end, it might not be a total bad thing after all.
If one can
understand this, he or she will find life much easier.


And we know that God causes all things to work together
for good
to those who love God, to those who are called according to
His
purpose. Rom 8:28

Fw: Blue Moon

Dear Sweetie,

I've waited a long time. Hindi pa rin kita makita. Pasensya na, kung dumating ka na, at pinalagpas pa kita. Kung kilala mo lang sana ako, siguro maintindihan mo pa. Kaso, kahit ako, naguguluhan sa sarili ko.

Hinintay kita, in my own little way. Simula pa siguro nung 12 years old ako. Pero, in fairness, tuwing may namemeet ako, ndi ako napapasigaw ng "this is it"... "eto na"... or "yeeesss".... kasi baka ndi ikaw yung dumating... ayokong magtaksil sa yo =).

Antagal kang pineprepare ni Lord. Mukhang nainip na ko. Or mukhang pineprepare din ako ni Lord, at mukhang naggive up na rin sya sa kin. Ang kulit ko daw kasi.

Sana masaya ka sa buhay mo, ngayon at sa mga darating pang panahon. Kung may asawa ka na, bumuo ka ng isang pamilya na magiging productive citizen ng mundo. Sana matupad lahat ng pangarap natin sa pamilya mo.

Sayang no, ndi nangyari yung kasal na pinlano natin! Siguradong sobrang ganda nun... kahit ndi man sa ibang tao... sigurado ko, sa ting dalawa, sobrang heaven ang feeling natin. Si Lord kasi... (manisi ba??? At si Lord pa sinisi).... ndi tayo nakapasa sa Will nya. O kung ndi man, napakadense nating dalawa, kasi kahit anong plano nya, ndi naman natin pinakikinggan.

Kahit ano namang mangyari, alam ko naman, ndi nya tayo pababayaan. Lalo ka na, lam mo bang palagi kitang pinagdadasal? Nun pa, mula pagpasok sa eskwela hanggang sa buhay mo ngayon. Lam kong ndi naman mawawala ang problema, pero lagi kong iniisip na nandyan naman Sya, pareho nya tayong minamatyagaan. Kaya hang in there, like I'm doing here.

May mga pinili tayo siguro na mas importante ng panahon na dapat naging tayo. Minsan, gusto ko ring magsisi pero andyan na yan. Ikaw ba nagsisisi? Palagay ko naman, may kanya kanya tayong tamang dahilan kung bakit ginawa natin yun. Tignan mo nga, kahit Sya, piniling igalang ang choices natin. Kung sakali man na nagiging dahilan yan ng minsan paglungkot mo, hamo na, lilipas din yan. Just get up, tayo na lang tayo uli.

O sya, hanggang dito na lang, hope your well.

Anonymously yours.

P.S. Naalala mo ba nung una tayong magkita? Hindi? Ah oo, ndi pa nga pala ano? Kasi minsang tumingin ako sa buwan, akala ko nakasabay kita. Blue moon pa naman nun. :)

Blue Moon
You saw me standing alone
Without a dream in my heart
Without a love of my own
Blue Moon
You know just what I was there for
You heard me saying a prayer for
Someone I really could care for
And then there suddenly appeared before me
The only one my arms will hold
I heard somebody whisper please adore me
And when I looked to the Moon it turned to gold
Blue Moon
Now I'm no longer alone
Without a dream in my heart
Without a love of my own

Fw:Lessons on Life

Forwarded by a friend...

There was a man who had four sons. He wanted his sons
to learn not to judge things too quickly. So he sent
them each on a quest, in turn, to go and look at a
pear tree that was a great distance away. The first son went in the winter, the second in the
spring, the third in summer, and the youngest son in
the fall.

When they had all gone and come back, he called them
together to describe what they had seen.

The first son said that the tree was ugly, bent, and
twisted.

The second son said no it was covered with green buds
and full of promise.

The third son disagreed; he said it was laden with
blossoms that smelled so sweet and looked so
beautiful, it was the most graceful thing he had ever
seen.

The last son disagreed with all of them; he said it
was ripe and drooping with fruit, full of life and
fulfillment.

The man then explained to his sons that they were all
right, because they had each seen but only one season
in the tree's life.

He told them that you cannot judge a tree, or a
person, by only one season, and that the essence of
who they are and the pleasure, joy, and love that come

from that life can only be measured at the end, when
all the seasons are up.

If you give up when it's winter, you will miss the
promise of your spring, the beauty of your summer,
fulfillment of your fall.

Moral lessons:

Don't let the pain of one season destroy the joy of
all the rest.

Don't judge life by one difficult season.
Persevere through the difficult patches and better
times are sure to come some time or later